Time to get organized

For days now, I have been cleaning the house. I know I talk about cleaning all the time, but we are not dirty people. We just don't organize well and have a hard time getting rid of things. I can wash 3 loads of laundry and not one piece of clothing will end up back in my dresser. Instead it sits in a pile in a basket next to the washing machine. That is only problem number one.
Problem two is we get too much junk mail. I don't like to just throw things away with my name on them so I put them in the shred pile. That pile never gets smaller. It just keeps getting taller. I will need quite a bit of time to shred everything and the shredder is so loud. Oh well. It will get done.

Baby news...I have been feeling the baby move for what seems to be like months now. Chris has felt it too, but seems a little freaked out by it. No big deal since I assumed he would feel that way. Well, a couple of weeks ago, I swore I saw my belly twitch right when the baby kicked my bladder and I had to pee. I thought maybe I was seeing things and just shrugged it off. I have seen it since and when I tell Chris to look, the baby stops. Go figure. Last night, was a different story....this baby was having a party on my bladder!! You could see my belly twitch in different places for every kick and punch. It was unbelievable. Chris saw it this time and just smiled.

Christmas

I know this is a little late to post, but I just wanted to post about Christmas this year. It was exhausting! Luckily, I did not work Christmas Eve so was able to go out with my mom and Chris for breakfast in the morning, go do errands with my mom, then head home to make cookies. I had started the candies the night before at 9:30. That makes sense right? I was busy all day and still did not get everything done that I wanted. I had just enough cookies. I was too tired to truly care. We spent Christmas Eve night at my grandparents house. The best part is watching my nephew open his gifts. He is a funny kid. Anyway, I ate too much, had heartburn, then drove home to bed.
Christmas morning is nice. Chris and I open gifts together then get ready for the busy day ahead. He bought me a snoogle....prego pillow. It is great. I can finally sleep and not wake up with back pain. He also bought me clothes and movies (unrated Die Hard 4). He seemed to like his gifts. We got ready and went to my mother's to open gifts with her and my younger sister. Then, it was off to my older sister's for brunch. After that, we head to Chris' parents for dinner. I think we left the house at 10am and returned home after 10pm. It is such a long day, but I enjoyed it. I had the next day off so I slept in a little, met my mom for lunch, returned some things, and then went home to clean. I was supposed to be resting, but I could not sit still.

Is it Monday?

I have to laugh at the morning I have already had because it is Thursday yet it was a Monday for me.
I woke up earlier than usual figuring there would be icy roads and I would leave for work early. I was doing great....quick shower, clothes all ready, made Chris' lunch, fed the cats, etc. I went outside to put salt down and slammed my finger in the front door. Ouch!!! It actually left an indent in my finger. Then, I went in the house to see Gracie trying to get into the Ziploc with my bagel. Next, I kept forgetting things to bring to work and when I finally packed it all onto my shoulders, I was bumping and slamming into doors and walls. I forgot to take my vitamin after dinner last night so I decided to chug some water and take them this morning. I opened my purse to see that my pill container had opened and there are now vitamins floating around in my purse. I found some others and proceeded to drop one on the floor of my car. One more try....I finally got one! My car ride was ok until Foxboro and everyone stopped. I decided to stay on 95 and just go to 128 instead of 1 today. That was not a good idea. A van slid off the road and into the snow in a construction area so traffic was backed up so we could all stare at nothing. Finally, I got to work 30 minutes late. I just drank a huge glass of OJ since the kids are still sick and coughing. I know my stomach will hate me later, but at least I won't get what they have. Fingers crossed.

I am starting to get excited for Christmas. I bought some fun gifts for people this year. I have no motivation to bake or decorate, but I am motivated to give presesnts. Our tree is still not decorated. oops. We will do it eventually. No one sees it anyway except for us. The cats are probably waiting so they can play with the ornaments at 3am...always a pleasure. : )

Humdrum

That is how I feel today. Nothing special, just kind of getting through the day. Little things are getting my emotions in a tangle. What a surprise. Everyone around me is sick and hacking nonstop. I wish I could travel in a bubble for a while. I am hoping to finish my shopping tonight. I guess that all depends on traffic and how many people get in my way. Blah, blah....

Chris and I put up the tree last night. It doesn't look too bad for an artificial one. We are going to decorate it tonight. I think I will start wrapping gifts too. I have Monday and Tuesday off next week so I need to wrap the kids' gifts before Friday morning.

My fingers are really starting to puff. I just noticed that. My rings still spin around my finger so that's good. Maybe I will take my college ring off tonight. That may prepare me a little for my wedding ring. I am hot. I lowered the heat, but it's not helping.

Frosty the Snowman is on tonight. I own the dvd, but there is something great about watching it on tv with all those toy commercial interruptions. I think it is popcorn and cocoa night just like when I was little.

I have an upset stomach. My bra is too tight (not a complaint). I am wearing an adorable t-shirt that says "Coming this spring." My hair looks nice after having it cut and straightened last night. Um, that's it. I have run out of things to type.

Really? That's the date??

I can't believe that Christmas is one week away. I went grocery shopping last night and planned meals for the whole week so I do not have to be in the stores around the crazies!! People are nuts out there. The worst ones are the old people. Yes, I said it and No I don't care. I don't owe them anything. They can be so rude. Two of them walked in front of me yesterday even though I had been patiently waiting for some room. Fine, go, but don't think I will sit there quietly!! I am not saying it is every old person. Some can be very respectful, but others act like young people should bow down to them.
I usually make cookies for Christmas and give them as little gifts to neighbors and family. This year, I just don't have the time for fancy baking and packages. I found 3 of the easiest cookie recipes in the world and am hoping for the best. I forgot the containers for them so that will be a fun trip to Target.
My shopping picked up a little this weekend. I ordered a few things that should be here any day now, I hope. The rest should be gift certificates to grab or simple items. I will be at the mall tonight for my haircut so maybe I can do stuff while I am waiting.

Baby info...My appointment went very well on Friday. My giant belly is measuring perfectly. I only gained 3 pounds this month instead of the seven I had last month. The midwife seemed pleased. My blood pressure was great. Ralphie was a mover and a shaker and his heart beat was wonderful to hear. My sister was with me. Ralphie also gave a nice kick to my belly while the doppler was on. It actually made the doppler microphone bounce. I go in 4 weeks for my glucose test. Yuck!
I need to stop calling him Ralphie. We need a name!!

Falling behind

I don't keep up with this blog like I thought I would. Maybe it was the horrible mood I was in all weekend. Why bring everyone down with me right?
I do have to apologize to my hubby, who never reads this anyway, but at least I am making an effort to let others know that I feel bad. I have been miserable. He hears all of it. Whether I am uncomfortable, can't sleep, mad at people, or just frustrated about a paper out of place, he listens. I am sorry that I complain as much as I do and I promise I will change. He knows I tried on Monday, but the vets office is stupid! He asked to hear that story. Would you???

I have to drive to the vets office to get cat food for our never full furballs. It is prescription food that they have to have or they will just keep getting fatter. We finally got them at a proper weight. Anyway, every time I go something annoying happens. It is usually the obnoxious people behind the counter that go too slow and ignore the large line forming at the desk. This week was no different. I was in line and an employee walked in front of me as if I was not there. Don't tell me you can't see me. My belly is out there now and there is no looking away!! She proceeded to ask the people behind me, who had just arrived from the back room, if they were all set. Um, obviously not. She then walked around the counter and got on the phone with an owner. Fine, but 10 minutes later when I am still standing in line and you hang up the damn phone, I should be the one to be helped first! I was there first you stupid woman!!!!! Nope, she called the couple behind me. Now, they were wrong too. They could have said, "oh, she was here first," but God forbid someone is kind. I proceeded to give an annoyed glance while a new customer who smelled of week old alcohol, breathed down my neck and huffed and puffed. Gross. I was finally acknowledged by the other fool behind the counter. When all was paid for and done, I ran to my car and screamed. I called my sister and she just stayed quiet on the phone while I threw some F-bombs and other bad things out of my mouth. Another apology had to be made. AGH!!!!!
So, here I am now 2 days later, trying very hard to be a good person. It is holiday time and I know many people are stressed and tired, but you don't need to forget how to be an intelligent human being.

Baby info.....the name we thought we liked is probably not going to stick, he is beating up my insides today, I now pee 2+ times a night even if I stop drinking hours before bedtime, mild banana peppers and sour patch kids are needed to keep me and baby happy!

Where is my money?

It has been over a year since my car accident. This should have been so simple. You smoosh my car, you pay me back. Let's not forgot the 8 months of physical therapy and chiropractic work either! I am so tired of fighting this. I am glad I have a lawyer who deals with all the paperwork and phone calls, but COME ON!!! When is this going to be over? I was hoping it would be done by the holidays, but with 3 weeks left for that, I am not very confident.

Happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts......

ZZZzzzzzz.......

Please let me go home and go to sleep!!! What happened to that second trimester energy I have heard so much about? Right now, I just feel large and tired. I don't want to be at work. I want to be home. I just want a bed. Anywhere actually. OMG....WAKE UP!!!!

Sorry for this complaining.

Weekend with a tumble

As usual, we had a very busy weekend. Mine started off searching for shoes on Friday night at the mall. I found a cute pair of ballet flats that were so comfy, but when I got home to put together the whole outfit...it was awful! The dress was not the right length for flat shoes. The nylons looked like orthopedic stockings. I was miserable and decided to get up early on Saturday to go shopping for a new outfit. I tried on so many pants and shirts. It was nuts. I finally decided on a cute top with rhinestones and a short sweater with nice black pants. It was all very comfy and still somewhat formal for the party.
We stayed over at the hotel which was great. I hate driving late at night. The hotel was a little loud and at 2 or 3am there was a bang on the front door and then someone in the next room was trying to come into ours through the connecting door. It was a little scary for a second, but I knew they were all partying in the hallway so I was able to fall asleep. I did learn that being sober is so much more fun than drinking. The sights are great. lol I know I have been one of those "sights" on many occasions, but I think from now on I will just be an observer.
Sunday, we drove home and made a stop for breakfast and a little shopping. It was freezing! We would go into stores just to warm up for a few minutes before continuing our walk. We bought some baby socks and an adorable romper that Chris picked out. It has a tiny jeep on it and a dinosaur. I had to do some grocery shopping too but we decided to go home for a little bit first. Around 4:30pm, I got up and started the car to leave for the store. I came back in the house and for some reason went downstairs to tell Chris something and ended up slipping and falling back on the stairs. I have never seen Chris so nervous. He jumped off the couch and helped me up. I was fine besides the scraped toe and sore behind, but I called the doctor just in case. They made me go to the hospital as a precaution. The whole process took less than an hour (unbelievable for an ER) and they checked me and then the baby's heartbeat. Both of us are fine. My blood pressure was normal and the heartbeat was 140 and strong. What a weekend!!

Not much to say

I called the doctor today to ask about my blood pressure. I am normally 100/60 and at my last appt I was 122/82. Apparently, weeks before that, I was 127/80. They said it is nothing to worry about and it will continue to fluctuate. Then, I asked more questions about my ultrasound. I just didn't know if I asked everything that I needed to. Well, she went step by step through it and said the baby is perfect. She also said that at the day of the appt, the baby was measuring 18 weeks, 6 days. I know they don't change due dates and it really is not a big deal, but technically then I am 21 weeks tomorrow. Funny thing about it is, the baby was ahead at our 5+week ultrasound too. The measurements have been very consistent since the beginning. Yay!

An odd day

After a busy, yet very nice Thanksgiving weekend, Chris and I woke up sick on Sunday morning. It started with a sore throat, then ear ache, and now congestion for me. Every day it gets a little better, but I still feel blah 2 days later. I am tired and feel like my feet are dragging heavily across the floor. I am also very hungry today. I have not eaten much health food, but even a prego needs a little break. I had tons of veggies with lunch yesterday and a salad with dinner. Today....choco chip muffin, crackers with peanut butter (not too bad) and a slice of cinnamon swirl bread. I have homemade minestrone soup for lunch so that's a good thing. Bleh! I will eat an apple for a snack later.

Tonight, I need to do laundry and pay bills. I somehow need to buy shoes too for this weekend or I will be going to the museum barefoot. AGH!!! One of these days I will catch up.

Halfway appointment

Wow, halfway! This is nuts.

I had another check-up today. My mom came along and cried when she heard the heartbeat. It was so nice that she was able to be there. Ralphie kicked the doctor while she was checking measurements. I had to laugh. He has been moving around ever since. He is on a mission to be noticed today. I am right on schedule with my weight gain because overall I have gained 9 pounds. However, I gained most of it in the past month which is a little interesting. I just need to be a little more cautious. More fruits and veggies.

I feel great and the doctor is still pleased with everything. Next appt is mid-December.

Back to work

My days are all starting to run together. The alarm rings and I can't remember if I am supposed to get ready for work or if I can hit snooze a few more times. I still set an alarm on the weekend because if I didn't, I would sleep it all away.
I am so happy this is a short week. I love Thanksgiving and other holidays. They are alot of work because of travelling and baking, but they are still fun. I am hoping to do some shopping before Thursday so I get it out of the way before the crazies come out.
This weekend was nice. I went out with my mom and nephew on Friday night. Then, we went back to my house for spaghetti. My nephew had fun "playing" video games with his Uncle Chris. He sat behind him on the couch pretending to save him from the bad guys. It was so cute. Drake really thinks he saved the day and it kept him calm for the night so that was great.

Saturday, I went to a church raffle thing. I love watching my sister and old ladies check their tickets for the winning numbers. Good times. Chris went out with a couple of friends so he wasn't home when I got back, which was good since I had an emotional meltdown. I watched The Wedding Planner with Jennifer Lopez and could not stop crying. Then, I started thinking about stuff and went into an hysterical convulsion of tears and whimpers. Even the cats were confused. I am just happy Chris wasn't there to see it because I still don't know exactly where all the tears came from.
Sunday, Chris bought his new phone. FINALLY!! He is a research junky and I am glad that he can just play with it now instead of reading a billion articles about it online. Then, we went to a friend's pre-Thanksgiving party. That was so much fun. It is nice to just hang out with friends and have no worries for a few hours.
Tomorrow is another doctor's appt. My mother is coming so I am excited. I promise I am making a list of questions tonight so I ask everything! I need to write stuff down because once I hear the little heartbeat, my brain melts and I can't remember anything. Wow, this got a little longer than expected. I think I have said my share......

Ralphie is a Ralphie!

We had our big ultrasound today and in the office, last second of course, we decided to find out. The baby was lounging around and kept putting his hands in front of his face. We saw everything. It is unbelievable to see the bones and vessels. I am a little overwhelmed now. For some reason it all became very real today.

After work, I went to the store and bought Chris a blue and white bib that says "I love Daddy." He was happy. I also bought little socks with footballs and baseballs. This baby is going to be the best brainwashed New England sports fan!! : ) I can't wait to register and shop some more.

Nauseous again

I thought I was done with this. It is not as bad as first trimester, but there have been a few minutes of "OMG, my stomach is turning upside down" feelings. It has only happened the past couple of days and I hope it goes away. What a disgusting feeling.

And what is this awful pull on my right side? The baby is the size of a bell pepper so it amazes me that my body is trying to stretch this much. Oh well.

I need to call the doctor and find out what is "heavy" for me to lift. I don't lift cases of water because I put all the weight on my lower back, but I do lift grocery bags. I also pick up one of the kids at work. She is like a feather to me, but now I am wondering what I am doing to the baby. I am sure all is fine. They usually say do what you are comfortable with. Whatever. I am comfortable laying in my bed like a lump with the tv on. Does that work?

10 Pounds!

Finally! I went on the scale and my weight went up. I don't feel like I am eating much more than usual except maybe the extra granola bar. I am 18+ weeks and I have gained ten pounds. Not bad. I should figure this out....so 5 pounds in 1st trimester and a little less than 1 pound a week in 2nd trimester so far. Perfect. I am stil struggling with the fruits and veggie thing, but I am better. I will be eating a ton of veggies at Thanksgiving so that is good. I love Turkey Day!

Oh, the dentist visit was great on Saturday. No cavities, healthy gums, and my dentist was very impressed that I did not have more problems due to pregnancy. Thank you floss. Chris took me shopping before the dental visit and I found a dress for the holiday party. It is blue and only a size bigger than I normally wear so it will be worn again in the future. I love it because it is very flowy (word?). Now, I need to buy shoes and some kind of shoulder wrap. I bought it with the intentions of continuing to shop in case I found one a little less expensive, but there was a little tension in line so I stopped shopping. Don't cut me in line and pretend you did not notice. I will let you know. Step off stupid people. : )

Baby info.....still kicking and squirming. muscles are stretching, back hurting, and I am tired. I cherish every second though.

Saturday

I really need a break. I know I say that alot lately, but I do. My allergies are kicking me in the butt, my belly is expanding, and this baby better be a soccer player! There are things moving and shifting in my body that I truly can never explain. Anyway....

Chris and I start our weekend by driving up to Natick to get his oil changed. That should not take too long. At least one of us follows through with car maintenance. Then, we are going to go to that crazy place called the Natick Collection. What a foolish place, but I really need a dress for his holiday party. I spent over an hour yesterday trying on dresses that ranged from looking like lingerie to circus tents. I am pregnant, not an elephant on parade. I also attepmted dresses in the non maternity departments in a size or 2 bigger than I normally am, but that did not end well either. There is a reason why pregos wear empire waists. We end our busy day with the dentist. BOOO!!!!! I do love our dentists. They have been great to us and have made my dental excursions much better than those in the past. However, I hate going. I am already miserable just thinking about it. The smell and the sounds. Oh, and let's not forget that I still randomly gag when I brush my teeth. How in the world am I going to make it through this cleaning? There better not be one cavity. I swear I will cry. Chris can't deal with taking me to the dentist because I am such a baby about it. He can fall asleep in the chair while they are scrubbing and picking. Weirdo. I sit there with white knuckles and an upset stomach. This should be fun.

So, that's my ramble for today. Did I put anything positive in there? I don't think so. Let me try to think of one.....(10 minutes later) It's Friday!

Haircut and the weekend

I am so exited. I finally got my haircut the way I wanted. I was tired of going to these cheap places and just walking away with the same style. Saturday morning I paid the extra and the girl straightened my hair too. It looked so nice. I had it straight for two days. Today, I woke up and showered and definitely had no time for the hour of salon work. I decided to let it just be. Big mistake....I love my hair straight and I don't want these curls. They are out of control. Maybe I will develop patience today and actually fix my hair tonight.

Chris and I worked so hard this weekend in the house. It actually looks somewhat organized. Well, a couple of the rooms do. Tonight we will attempt the front room. Yikes. I have no idea where this stuff is going to go. I guess if I haven't used it in awhile then I can just throw it in the trash. : ) We are trying to get this stuff done before the holidays. Oh, and early shopping this year too.

Expiration dates

I have been noticing expiration dates on various products. I always have when I buy something, but now I look at them a different way. Now, instead of saying "I can buy this and it will be good for a few months" I say "our baby will be 2 months old by then." I am comparing my child to a can of green beans. : ) It is even more fun when you compare the baby to soap and shampoo which has a longer shelf life.

Some sad, some happy

Yesterday, was the 5 year mark since my father passed away. I was ok with it for awhile and then I went to the cemetery. It all becomes sort of surreal (is that the word) when you are there. Memories and thoughts came crashing down on you and the emotions are all over the place. I like to go there by myself so I can let it all out with no distractions. It took a few minutes to get myself together, but after that I was fine. There is a point when you need to move on and look forward. I am trying really hard to focus on the good things and not dwell on the horrific parts of the ordeal. If I didn't make an attempt at this, then I would make myself crazy. We did end the day nicely with a family dinner. No complaints about Wright's from me.

I also stayed awake for an entire baseball game!!! I have been falling asleep around the third inning, then wake up on and off until the 9th. Last night, I was determined. It was such a good game and I am so happy that I did not miss the World Series win. I would have been so mad. It would have been worse if I had stayed awake for the whole game and they lost. Then, I would have had to do it all over again tonight. Thank you Kielty for that homerun. I am pretty tired today because of it, but well worth it.

Baby news....this baby is a mover and a shaker. I don't know what in the world "Ralphie" is doing, but it is weird to feel it. I bought some new clothes to get me through a few more days of this cold weather, which I welcome since the humidity was disgusting. I am going to buy some pajama pants tonight since I am busting out of the seams on all of mine. Very interesting since I am gaining no weight, but clothes fit less. That's fine. The fun thing about maternity clothes is I don't have to try anything on. I am a medium and if it is a little big now, I will grow into it soon enough.

Well, I am hungry so I am off to get some cereal. Yum, cereal.....

OMG, I'm pregnant!

I have these random moments when I realize I am pregnant. It is not because I am nauseous or tired. It is not because I have gained 6 or 7 pounds. It is just because. I was driving yesterday and realized I am pregnant. I cried for a large chunk of the ride home while screaming obscenities at the idiots who have no clue how to drive on 95/128. So not only am I thinking, "holy crap this is my life now." I am also thinking, "my child's first word is going to be f*cktard." For three weeks, I tried to control my potty mouth, but I had to let it out yesterday.

Anyway, life is going to be so different in the spring. I am not going to be that parent who stops going out or having a good time because I have a child. However, there may be early nights. There may be early mornings. There will be crying, midnight feedings, more worrying. I know what I got myself into. I understand the life change that I have chosen.

Does Chris understand? He is so quiet about life. He goes through his days calmly. He has his moments of stress, but he lets it pass by. He rarely gets upset or angry. You'll know if he is. We planned this and he keeps telling me that. He knows everything will work out. For some reason he has some kind of sixth sense about things. Deep down I know that we will be a happy family, but these hormonal flashes of reality are rough. : )

Update

After a very busy and fun weekend, I had a doctor's appointment on Monday. I was so ill all morning. It probably has something to do with eating late and sleeping so much on Sunday. Anyway, it all worked out fine.

My doctor seemed pleased that I was doing very well. The heartbeat was strong and Ralphie was active. I could hear him/her moving around on the doppler. I guess that explains all the twinges and spasms I keep having. I have gained NOTHING since my last appointment 4 weeks ago, which completely amazes me. I am not sure what more I could possibly eat. The doctor is showing no concern about it. I guess if I gained too much or lost weight then she would worry, but instead said I am very healthy and doing well. I'll take it. I was also able to make our appointment for our big ultrasound, but I will keep that date secret. : )

Hmm...any other news? I don't think I have much to say on the baby side of things. I do have an off topic subject. I am so flippin' excited that I was able to pull off a good costume this weekend. I have no idea how we finished it, but I am psyched. I am so happy that people liked it. Yay trophy! My mom was so proud. lol

Time is not on my side

Why do I get so bored with things? I just want to clean my house and put clothes in storage. That is not supposed to be a difficult task. Instead, I start with dishes then leave the dishwasher open and walk away to fold laundry, then I go to make dinner. Focus!!! It is nice that I am starting projects so the house has improved. I just need to finish.

I also have my Halloween costume to make. I found most of the pieces, but now I have to put it all together and make sure I can easily access the bathroom. So much to do, so little time.

Really?

For those of you that know me well, you know that I have never been accused of speaking quietly. I think I came out of the womb loud. I have no problem with it. I know I am loud. I try to control it at some points, but for the most part I really don't care what people hear.

Now, given this fact...why don't people hear me??? Is it some kind of joke? How far will Amy go before she explodes? Honestly, don't ask if you don't want the answer. If you don't care then don't waste my time. I would much rather save my breath for more important things.

Hmm....

Mondays suck! I am so tired that I actually cried in the car on my way to work. I did not fall asleep until midnight. My head was pounding so hard that I had to take a tylenol before bed. I hate when I have to do that. That was tylenol number 4 of this pregnancy. (Yes, I keep track.) I had horrible nightmares and I tried to deal with them on my own so Chris could stay sleeping.

The good thing about Monday though is my shows are on. The Red Sox are also playing tonight and hopefully they will keep Gagne in hiding. I fell asleep the other night when the score was tied 3-3. I didn't know the final ridiculous score until late Sunday morning. Insanity!!! Ok, I am done for now. My eyeballs are burning.

Eating right.

I am not the healthiest eater in the world, but I am also not a junk food only person either. I try really hard to eat what I am supposed to and add the prego calories the right way and not with a candy bar. It wasn't a huge deal in first tri, but now it is more important. I have to make a chart of what I eat. I need to add some fruits and veggies. Yuck!! I am fine in every other food group. I eat salad. That is kind of a step in the right direction. Do orange cupcakes count as a fruit?

Second Trimester

I made it! Let the weight gain begin and the exhaustion go away.

There is not much to report. I still sleep alot at the wrong times. I am still freaking out about everything and my darling hubby told me to "get a pair." Funny, huh? We have been doing a little bit of chatting about the birth process. We have to sign up for classes soon and need to figure out which ones to take. Maybe hypnotherapy birth is not such a bad idea after all. lol

I guess that is all for now....

Late again!

This seems to be my new trend...late to work. It is not done on purpose. I just can't get out of bed. If I go to bed when I am tired, then I sleep for a couple of hours and then I am up for 2 hours, sleep for a half hour, up for half hour, etc. If I go to bed early, then I sit there like a lump thinking about nonsense for 3 hours. There has to be some happy medium.
I do have a positive though. My nausea seems to be gone. That is wonderful. I am still not craving anything special, but that's fine. I am just glad that when I do eat something, I don't regret for hours after. : )
Overall, I have gained 4 pounds in 12+ weeks. I had gained five, but one seems to have disappeared. Second trimester now.....time to blow up like a whale and love it!!! I can't wait to go shopping for sweaters.

Pink Elephants

If someone said not to think about pink elephants, what would you do? Probably think about pink elephants, right? The same thing happens when a magazine article says "If you don't like hearing stories about labor, then stop reading this article." Um, no, too late. So, I read the article. I regret every word I read, but I can't wipe it from my memory now.

Choices, pain, nastiness. OMG!!! When I first found out I was pregnant, I was thinking about cute prego clothes and setting up the nursery. Now, months later, I am thinking epidural, agony, and the disgusting things that will be happening to my body in April. I am a person who will wait to pee if Chris is in the shower. I can't believe what he is going to see. It is quite disturbing.

You can tell me it is a miracle until you are blue in the face. I know it's a freakin' miracle! How else could a human weighing an estimated 7 pounds come out of a girl? I am just worried because I have never had surgery before. I have never broken a bone. I cry when I go to the dentist to have a cavity filled. Is it normal to freak out now?

I will do whatever it takes, besides shoving an epidural into my back, to have this wonderful baby. I am so happy right now, but I am also petrified. Let's hope that the next few months calm me down.

Dreams and Paranoia

How Chris is not crazy yet with me waking up every couple hours is beyond me. I toss, turn, and throw the blanket. Then, I have the dreams about bleeding and I end up waking up like a freak and running to the bathroom just to be sure I am fine. Of course everything is ok, but seriously. I did not think it was possible to be more paranoid than I already am. What is going to happen once the baby is born? Dreams about kidnapping? I guess it never truly ends and I have been paranoid and nervous for years anyway so why not the rest of my life? I would like to ask for one night, just one. A calm, pleasant dream evening. Is that too much to ask for?

Ugh!!

Well, I had 3 days of nausea nonstop. I knew the couple days last week of feeling wonderful were a tease. This morning I am doing ok though. I may fall asleep standing up, but that's not too bad. : ) I wish I could stop these weird, random dreams. They make no sense. Some are scary and others are just odd.

Yawn......

My positive for the day is "Pumpkin muffins are back at Dunkin' Donuts!" I usually just drink a Carnation and eat a banana in the morning, but today I was too tired to care. I decided to stop in DD and grab a cup of tea and a bagel, but then I saw the muffins. Woohoo! I know it is not the breakfast of champions, but I think the baby really wanted one. ; )

I should explain "Ralph"

We were at a friend's house and discussing the upcoming pregnancy. The topic of names was brought up, of course. Chris and I agree on very few names and I was only joking around when I said "Ralph Macchio Renzi." I will never be able to forget it thanks to the multiple witnesses. I am a Ralph/Karate Kid fan, but not obsessed.

New to blogging

Day one of blogging. I don't really know what to say. I just wanted a place to put my thoughts down during this pregnancy. I am trying to save Chris from my insanity roller coaster. We have had 2 ultrasounds and saw Ralphie's little heart beating. We were also able to see the brain developing. At our last two appointments, we heard the heartbeat. That is the best sound EVER!!!
I still have some moments of nausea and I am extremely tired. The exhaustion turns me into an emotional train wreck. I even cried while watching "Over the Hedge" yesterday.
There are no cravings yet except for the random outbursts for fried chicken and milk shakes.
Chris has been great through all of this. I hope it keeps up after the baby is born. :)

I guess that is all for now. I will keep you posted on our little bean and how the hubby is dealing.